This morning, I decided to take a little peak at the side of the neighbors' pool, and found even more exquisiteness - a privacy fence with 3 or 4 outdoor lights. Impressive! Maybe I'm just masking my total jealousness with a thick veil of criticism...It is probably true. I was supposed to be getting an above ground pool before summer, and instead, I'm going to be looking for another place to live.
It makes me terribly sad to leave my house. I picked it with so much care...I saw it, and I fell in love with all the little nooks and crannies, and the tremendous outdoor potential. I had such big dreams...But that's just it. They were merely dreams.
It's hard enough to let go of material things, which can be replaced, but what is most difficult, is the thought of starting over. It's exciting not to know what the future brings, but at the same time, it is very scary. Will I ever trust and fall in love again? Will it be someone who loves me unconditionally and who would never hurt me?
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